Thursday, February 25, 2010

God is here -- Even in the hard times

Had a good day today, minus Ellie not wanting Mommy to leave this morning. It is so hard to go with her in tears. I know these times go away all to fast and you just want them back...How do you not miss it all when you are at work all day?

My heart just breaks to for our friends who lost a father/daddy today. The reality of there story and walk with cancer just seems to close for comfort. I just can't imagine what they are going through. However, through it all they have "Praised you in the Storm." Prayers and petition definantly being sent there way through this very real storm...Makes my petition and prayer to the Lord on behalf of other friends and believers that have been through big storms recently even more etched in my mind as well. What a rough few months this has been. Makes me really wonder what is going on, feels like the devil really wants a hold.

It definantly opens my eyes to the strength and depth of relationship and trust they have with our Heavenly Father. I definantly "covet" that. An area to continue to grow in. Also, an eye opener that I especially still have some healing of my own to do after the last seven months. I have to say this is still a very real fear to me. It will probably take quite a while for me to continue to work through. To be totally honest, I don't know if after getting that cancer diagnosis if the fear will ever go away, or just continue to be a constant in the back of my mind.

1 comment:

Caitlin said...

So many storms of illness, separation, fear. This was my theme song during our last deployment. But God is faithful and joy comes with the morning!